A member of the congregation writes:
I’m sorry to say I have already forgotten the details of the discussion, but the one thing that has stuck with me from the Sunday evening service a couple of weeks ago was someone saying – Remember Jonah ran away when he was scared.
I have to admit I’m scared at this moment and I want to run. I have the pleasure of working in the NHS with some amazing people, but the current situation is very scary. Not because we are under pressure locally at this moment, we have nearly 150 empty beds (this is unheard of). The work that is going on at our local hospital to get ready is incredible, please be reassured you have some amazing people who have not stopped working to get us ready for what may happen over the next few weeks and months.
Personally, I have been rapidly promoted into a position where I have to take a lot of responsibility for a lot of people, my decisions at this time could impact directly on someone’s life – possibly someone who is reading this, or one of the team that are relying on me to get my decisions right.
I have to regularly remind myself that I am experienced at what I do and I have years of experience in this area.
But this brings me back to the point of writing these words. I need God in my life.
I am naturally someone who will question myself at every turn, worry constantly about what people think about me and I don’t want the limelight.
And yet I find myself having to lead by example, being calm and confident while making large decisions that impact on a lot of staff and patients, or spending millions of pounds on equipment and projects.
The only way I can manage to do my job is if I remember to pray, to ask questions and try to understand what God wants me to do. When I forget or stop praying, life gets harder, the decisions aren’t as easy and the time I wake up in the morning gets earlier and earlier.
The one thing to remember, which I have to keep reminding myself, If you remember to pray its incredible what you can achieve.
It’s a lot more scary without God in your life, I found God at 19. It seems a long time ago, but I still remember the lost feeing I had back then, how helpless it seemed. Then I think about how far I have come and what I have achieved while trusting to God.
I’m scared, but I have my faith in God. We will get through these next few months together.